Ok, so it has been quite awhile since I have last blogged. Milly is now 40 lbs. and such a sweet dog! I love her so much! School is over, except for my summer Biology class, which will be the death of me. I'm convinced. Also going on in my life: Lately I have been feeling the call and desire to be more disciplined in my life. Spiritually, emotionally and physically. So, I joined a gym and have been really consistent so far with working out. Okay people...this is HUGE for me. I hate, or should I now say hated, working out. I would get exhausted and bored, then discouraged when I didn't see results the next day and therefore would give up. Well, this time needed to be different. Instead of leaning and relying on myself to stay committed to working out I pray it out. I am continually relying on God's strength to get me through exercising. Not only because I want to be healthier and treat my body well, but also because I am called to take care of my body and be disciplined and not let laziness or food become a 'lord' in my life. (Yes, I realize that I am using and a lot)But so far so good! I actually look forward to going to the gym! (again, HUGE!!)
In addition to being more disciplined with working out I knew that I also needed to spend more time with the Lord daily and decided to get a devotional book related to what I feel like is becoming my biggest struggle area. (This is where I will now begin to vent...) So, if you know me at all you know that I really want to be married. Yes, I know that I am young, but when all your friends are engaged or married it makes it really difficult to be content with my singleness. I now want to say that I am so happy for my friends who are married, engaged or dating, like I said it just makes it hard for me to be content. Singleness is my big struggle area and a few weeks ago a friend at church was talking to me after service and said "I don't know if this will make sense to you, but I just feel like the Holy Spirit wants me to tell you that you should have peace." He then went on to basically read me like a book and told me that the Lord has preserved me and saved me from relationships so far in my life for Himself. So that I would lean on Him. That HE loves me. As soon as he started talking to me about this I began to cry. God knew that in that moment I needed a reminder that He loves me and He has a purpose for my life, even if I get impatient with His timing, I need to continue to trust Him. He knows what is best for me and I love the way He speaks to me. So began my journey to find a good, no great devotional book on trusting God or being content. But as I stood in the Christian book store I just became more frustrated. I found many books for teenagers. And the rest of the books that caught my eye sounded great until I would see "For Couples" following the enticing title. WHAT THE HECK?!?!?! Is this some kind of cruel joke? "Lord I am trying to find a book that will help me be content with the season of life I'm in and the only books I can find are for couples? Not funny." Now, let me just say that I think it is so important that there are many books available to teenagers and couples. But what about us who are in between our teen years and married life? Where are the books on how to embrace your life at that stage? I ended up finding a good devotional book that covers both singleness and marriage. Still, I think there needs to be more books on contentment for those of us who are, so to say, in the in-between stage of life. Hey, maybe I'll even write one once I have peace and contentment.
So, this blog is really about nothing and seems to be just a long rant. But, if you know of any good books about being content with your life let me know. Also, I want to say that I am really happy with my life and so grateful for every day, but it doesn't mean that it isn't a struggle being single sometimes. Anyway, I think that I should call it a night and stop ranting about this and move on to being content.
Happy Reading!
